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New Entry! "Double Life" by Lay

Hey, my name is Talasia, but I go by Lay because my name is sometimes hard to pronounce for some people.


Writing poetry is my gateway to venting on how I feel about an issue I'm facing or seeing daily.


I started writing poetry during quarantine in 2020, since the majority of the world was home looking at the same four walls every day. I felt like I was losing my mind as the days passed, so I put pen to paper and my fingers on keyboards. My first-grade notebook is full of different stories I made, which showed me that I have a head full of imagination. But those imaginations never were shared with anyone because I was always afraid to speak up, since I was made fun of because of how I used to think in grade school.


Of course, as time went on, I started not to care about what people thought of me. There's someone out there in this world who is going through the same challenges or experiences that I did before & face today. I chose this writing path to let others know you're not alone, and that through every single flaw you have, you can and will make it through, despite what others say or think about you.


Stay blessed.


So I was sitting at the dinner table with my

parents and they said

"Have you lost your damn mind?"

And quite frankly, I have

NEWSFLASH

They found out their baby girl

let a whole boy between her thighs

Before they thought I was innocent and my life

was perfectly fine

On the inside was a high pitch cry for help

But that cry was rooted so deep into the soil I

mean soul that I completely lost myself

I couldn't identify who I truly was

where I was oblivious and thought my life was

peaches and cream on some 1-1-2

But in reality dialing 9-1-1 was something I had

to subject to

You talking about a girl who hated to (inhale

and exhale) breathe

Who had no respect for herself

and

craved the attention when someone admired

her physique

Who didn't know her true purpose

Who went running and searching for love so

someone can fill her Voidness

But that remedy didn't meet her needs

Who was always scrolling on her IG

Because she hoped one day she can be like

those models she seen

Who were always chilling pool side in a bikini

sipping a Malibu Sunset or whatever

But the million dollar question is behind the

blue skies and a summer tan, are they hiding a

crooked smile and filled with emptiness

Just like how I was?

I mean how could I forget?

I could never, but best believe I'm letting go

and moving on to the better

From undervaluing myself to having a new

perspective

Sounds like a cause and effect

Don't you think?

And don't get me wrong my life ain't 100%

perfect

Cause let's be real nobody is

But I can say I learned so much than I ever

learned before

And that's because I let the man upstairs

through my front door and he began to do

something more than spring cleaning

So to the girl who hated to (inhale and exhale)

breathe

Who had no respect for herself

and

craved the attention when someone admired

her physique

Who didn't know her true purpose

Who went running and searching for love so

someone can fill her Voidness

But that remedy didn't meet her needs

Who was always scrolling on her IG

Because she hoped one day she can be like

those models she seen

There's no way you can fix a broken crayon,

but that broken crayon can still draw a

masterpiece

I hope this message doesn't just gravitate

towards my women

But I hope it gravitates to my men too

Peace

Stay blessed



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